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[061608 ★ 12:14am] i ll consider this a small cpr to my livejournal. i dont really know what to say, im speechless, but at the same time i want to tell all. Well let me start it off with this, my life may suck and my days are drug out and i hate them but you know what at the end of the day i see her, i see her and i smile and at that moment everything, all my problems go away. I walk out of ups cursing about what a shitty day i had what a shitty life im forced to live then i look up and to my surpise she is sitting in her car next to mine and i smile. I see her everyday and if i dont i crash and burn, i know i know its offly soon to feel this way but you know what things happen and i absolutly love this girl. Shes doing everything i want to do with my life, she volenteers at a rescue squad shes going into the airforse as a police officer and she will be a firefighter when she gets out, im so proud of her. I cant help but feel like shes showing me indirectly how to get what i want and how to get the most out of it, i want to go into the military STILL but im still waiting on that letter, im still going to the recruiter this week (throwing that out there). She is my life line and my heart and with out her i'd be nothing right now. I LOVE EMILY. I miss joseph, i want to hang out with him im so bored and i want to go to his house and just chill out like old times. I hate growing up but it was a must and it happened but you know what im taking joie with me, i refuse to forget or leave him behind, i wont even let us go our seperate way. Hes my back bone he keeps me going when he doesnt even know, a simple hey kid whats good makes me survive. I just wish i could bring him down here with me. This town is dead, if you have a choice do not come to roanoke its pretty boring ha, yeah not much going on here. It seems like there are alot of kids that have no future and i dont really want to be caught up in that whole genre. I was depressed from like november to january, attempted to drown myself but couldnt do it cause i didnt want to be found buck naked in the tub in the same house as my 3 yr old niece, what a man right? you know everytime i get ahead of the wave i get pulled under by the ankle and drug to the bottem. From november to january was just tough three jobs? yeah i had to and you know what i got out of it, a trip to philadelphia where i saw my friends that i miss dearly and i would give anything to be with them again.  yeah i dont want to type anymore. Force Fed.

[011007 ★ 7:25pm] ok so long time but got a job have my brittany again have my car going to school umm.... life is good Force Fed.

My love to courtney cush [092406 ★ 7:44am] [ mood | satisfied ] <3 I TEXT (everyday) AND   CALL (occasionally) COURTNEY CUSH CAUSE I LOVE HER! <3 ask her its true (2) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[090606 ★ 5:04am] ok so lets see 75 years later i update umm hmm i work at ups not bad not bad at all love it been working doubles for the past three weeks ummm i have my own cell phone plan already effed up i hate sprint right now umm ive been playing wow lately good game good game ummm i start school in november excited then three years and ill ahve my BS degree nigga's jealous? umm i dont see joie to much makes me sad umm josh shay lives with me (smiles) luv em luv em umm me and joie are getting an apartment and it will be one room with bunk beds IM EXCITED! umm my car is still broke might be fixed soon umm i broke up with brittany a little sad oh well it happens umm courtney moved away =( but she is still gonna get an apartment with me and joie umm wawa is too far away umm got the whole good guy bionicles of 2006 now im working on the bad guys umm i think thats it COMMENT BITCHS! I MEAN IT CARE!! (3) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[070706 ★ 6:50am] [ mood | sleepy ] can i just get some comments (6) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[032306 ★ 8:18pm] ok for starters i never told my gf that she wasnt liked by courtney and i didnt call cause i felt bad i called because i was trying to stay friends but whatever. its funny how you assume i felt bed "because honestly, you dont know who she likes and who she doesnt, only she knows." instead it should be you dont know how i feel only i know unless i express it. i never said i was the good guy i never said i was the bad guy i am now coming to the point where this is becoming a 4 yr olds game and i tried to stay away from a problem or anything like this i know writing this will start more problems but im too the point where im not gonna try and im not gonna listen im concidering it to be over and im leaving it alone after this. (4) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[031206 ★ 8:44pm] [ mood | content ] ok so when i thought all was well and i was trying to keep it that way all was dark a good friend well until i stopped paying attention is mad at me and i realized that ive done something i swore i wouldnt do but it happened. i didnt mean for it to happen but i was hinted that i should stop tryng and just live with it. i told her i would call and she said goodluck with the pickup (pretty much) so i took what was said and i didnt bother her by calling her on the bright side two things this week both on tuesday: BNO CHIODOS ARMOR FOR SLEEP!!! 1 MONTH!!! im sooo excited i also have to do my 30 hours of community service, i hate my 9 oclock curfew, anger management is fine haha its kinda funny and it makes me realize that life really does change growing up this girl is amazing i heart brittany <3<3<3 ((2/14)) (3) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[021006 ★ 6:27pm] this girl... <333 (1) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[020306 ★ 9:10pm] =) <3     enough said Force Fed.

[011706 ★ 2:18am] ok so i met her and i seem to like her and i seem to think about her alot me and her are hanging out on friday and im kinda nervous cause im suppose to be drinking and i dont want to be a drunken fool around her i have to wake up in like 3 hours to go to work at 615 but im not feeling it and christina yelled at me to goto bed but im waiting on songs to download me + christina are going hxc at two show, can you guess which two? i feel like dancing hmmm im addicted to champions and FreeCell i have no minutes on my cellphone im all out of wawa lemonade tea i dont feel like going to school in two days i have a project due friday on thursday im going to fill out applications on thursday (hopefully) christina may come (the company would be amazing) im wearing my slippers if you hate joie you hate me i have court next week twice im bored so ive decided to learn how to play the trumpet and the piano and i dont care what people think about that me and joie may be getting more lizards and another frog and courtney said if we do get another on she is getting one and we already have four lizards and one green tree frog in a 10g tank so we have to up it to 20g me and christina are going on our long waited date soon im suppose to stay over carolyn's this weekend i hate bitting my nails but i cant stop im going to the boys night out, armor for sleep show i just put on yellowcard ive been listening to techno all night ok im going to bed now (2) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[011406 ★ 4:55am] ok so yesterday i felt like i was 13 people need to understand im a big boy i know what im doing and yea im going to work and its 4:56 ha i hate this job... Force Fed.

[111705 ★ 4:04pm] [ mood | hopelessly romantic ] [ music | Fenix Tx - Katie W. ] When our lips meet a smile will follow I <3 HER =) (1) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[103005 ★ 2:28pm] wow she gives me butterflies... should i ask her for a dance? (2) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[103005 ★ 12:40am] so now i gotts my eye on two girls. but something is making me nervous i feel like a kid (3) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[102605 ★ 10:56pm] She makes me smile... (4) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[102305 ★ 6:47am] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | Something Corporate - Ruthless ] I hate how the nice guy finishes last... I <3 "HER" Her? If you find her tell her to call me. (1) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[091905 ★ 7:06am] YESTERDAY I SAW THE GREATEST PERSON EVER YESTERDAY MY POPCORN!!! for people who dont know who that it your just not cool... I SAW ALLEY!!!!! (3) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[091205 ★ 10:06pm] I now salute the goodbye to the Skate park in franklin mills i am outta a job now but i want everyone to know this The contract that the skateparks (dallas, denver, etc.) had with the mills corperation expired and they were trying to work out a deal, trying to keep the parks open but mill corp. didnt budge and last night they shut all the parks down. if you look in the windows you will only see racks and the ramps, no cloths, no signs on the walls, its different. im sure gonna miss it... we should riot and get the park back but i doubt they will listen to us so all i can say is goodbye skatepark at franklin mills... -Sean Force Fed.

[083105 ★ 1:28pm] [ mood | FEELING LIKE ME! ] [ music | Crazy Frog - Axel F ] Ok so boredem has led me to do this and so on... lately i have been doing alot of nothin i guess i dont know, i hang out, work, skate, sometimes i drink and sometimes goto the movies. im very laid back and careless right now and me and joie were having a serious talk and i think the stuff that me and him have gone through this summer really was a plus. alot of stuff wouldnt have turned out the way it did if alot of stuff didnt happen. and our job aka the skate park at franklin mills seem to help cause we meet alot of new people. but in june after i graduate me joie and courtney are gonna get an apartment and live our lifes. it wont be a party house it will be our home a place where we live so hearing that we are getting an apartment gives you an idea of drinking and hanging out all the time well forget abotu that, we wont be hanging out in the apartment too much. we havent decided where we want an apartment, i want one in old city or somewhere downtown, but def. not on south street. we are the definate three, we all have jobs, and we are all responsible with what we have to do. me and joe talked about that too. school is starting in like 7 days or what ever and i dont have any supplies but i dont mind cause i havent recieved much from school just my advisory stuff but besides that thats all. this year i want to work my ass off so i cant get into a college so i can move up in ranks in the airforce. im doing life my way so yeaa dont try and change it to your favor. i went to a show two weeks ago and i thought i broke my jaw but i pushed it the opposite way it seemed it was leaning towards and it was fine. I have band Practice with Joie but john is at work so we are having a kid dan come fill in so our one song can be finished after we add the bass part we need definite words cause haha everytime i sing i change the words, and no i dont think i can sing i just sing cause its just me and joie all the time. lets see i got my car, FINALLY!!! but gas money must be supplied if you want a ride. so yeah. im surpised i wrote this much, im not one for giving my business out but -> ***NEWS FLASH: BILL NYE THE SCIENCE GUY IS BACK*** <- but i was bored and only let some stuff go. hmm now its down to the relationship part of this rant. i have yet to find a girl that is ready for a serious thing but i have found a few girls that im suppose to make out with. its funny though cause yesterday i was asked "why dont you have a girlfriend?" i just went with because the girls i ask rather not go out with me i suppose and after that i went into me and her making out cause im doing for some making out. haha two nights ago some girl called me at 2 in the morning keep in mind i was in bed at 12 and she was like hey what are you doing i was like sleepign she was like oh sorry i was like eh dont worry about it whats up she was like nothing really what are you doing tomorrow i was like haning out with my friend nicole and im holding her up to making out with me cause she said she would and the mystery girl was like hmm why dont you ever ask me to make out, then i was like well ill make out with you tomorrow night just come over to hang out and we will make out and she was like are you messing around i waslike nope im dead serious now im going to bed nighty night and that was that. the only problem was i dont know who she was and i didnt get to hang out with any girls yesterday but hey there is today and tomorrow and the rest of my life, by the looks of things. ok well now im done so buh bye (2) lost Dreamer ★ Force Fed.

[081005 ★ 2:09am] HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEW LYRICS "Garden Statement" The traffic's backed for miles on these quiet suburban roads while the rubber necking strangers are dying to see this victim's wounds cause he’s all alone with his notebooks and poems in this empty grave where he wrote all of his secrets that became his lyrics with no intent to show anyone [Chorus] and we give and we give but its all for nothing its all for nothing we try to resist but I give everything and its all for nothing so the panic sets and cycles his mind for restless sleep while the blood sucking leeches contaminate every line they read just leave him alone in this dark room this white sheet tightly wrapped cocoon cause its no secret I fucking need this Like I don’t need anyone [Chorus x2] It's like I’m falling asleep with my eyes open shutting down and off the lights cause after all of this it’s all or nothing still I wouldn’t try to fight I've fallen asleep with my eyes open (and you'll lie to all your friends) (about sights you never saw) shutting down and off the lights (and you'll preach to all the press) (about what you don't know at all) cause after all of this it's all or nothing still I wouldn't try to fight So let me drown so I can breathe again I’m through choking and suffocating on alter egos and ulterior motives which weigh you down and take control of the way you are and the things that you need the life you live and the dreams that you dream distort and blur all in slow motion they broke you down and now you're broken and it’s sadder than the saddest movie I ever saw but with out the beauty so I stopped watching, I stopped caring I lost all interest and I stopped wearing these plastic smiles I’ll wash my hands clean I'll forget that you forgot about me and I’ll live the life, the big city feeling cause it’s better than suburban dreaming Living off the friends that hate you who talk shit on me like I don't know who my real friends are anymore no I don’t know you anymore and it’s sadder than the saddest movie I ever saw but without the beauty so I stopped watching, I stopped caring [Singing in background] (spill the ink and spill your guts again) spill the ink and spill your guts again I've fallen asleep with my eyes open (and you'll lie to all your friends) (about sights you never saw) shutting down and off the lights (and you'll preach to all the press) (about what you don't know at all) cause after all of this it's all or nothing still I wouldn't try to fight Force Fed.

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